[Watching the others through the journals has taught her a little bit about how these things are supposed to work, but she's realizing now, rather bitterly, that it was nowhere near enough. There are so many words the others use to describe this sort of thing, and she doesn't know which ones are the right ones or even how she would describe the way her heart is pounding - has been pounding for some time, around him - even if she didn't have to choose from the pool they used.
What if she had wanted him to "mean to?" Did she even want him to? If she did, how on earth was she supposed to say that?]
I... I'm sorry I worried you. [She can at least manage this, even if she can't make sense of anything else right now.] I wanted to at least tell you what was going on, but Master Bancroft never left me alone, and I don't know how much worse it would have gotten if I'd tried behind his back while he was there...
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[Watching the others through the journals has taught her a little bit about how these things are supposed to work, but she's realizing now, rather bitterly, that it was nowhere near enough. There are so many words the others use to describe this sort of thing, and she doesn't know which ones are the right ones or even how she would describe the way her heart is pounding - has been pounding for some time, around him - even if she didn't have to choose from the pool they used.
What if she had wanted him to "mean to?" Did she even want him to? If she did, how on earth was she supposed to say that?]
I... I'm sorry I worried you. [She can at least manage this, even if she can't make sense of anything else right now.] I wanted to at least tell you what was going on, but Master Bancroft never left me alone, and I don't know how much worse it would have gotten if I'd tried behind his back while he was there...